It's Christmas!

Hello! =)
well i know Christmas is an important day for some people..
so i am wishing all of my friends who's celebrating Christmas a very very

MERRY CHRISTMAS! =)

in couple hours of time i'll be going to fraser's hill with my family AGAIN..
many ppl says its boring up there..well..i won't think so because it really does helped me and my family to get closer..haha..PEACE! XD
STEAMBOAT AND BBQ here i come!

by the way..i am really getting closer to my brothers already..
not that i am not close to them last time..what i meant here was CLOSER =)
they are really cute! XD
oh my god..i said they are cute =X sound so girlish..HAHAHA!

well i just love the peaceful environment without fighting or arguing..
experiment and personality test in TTC are correct i guess..
saying that i am a PEACEMAKER..=.="

anyway..its an End to year 2010 already!
2011 is just around the corner..
i really dun feel the year end excitement due to my classes still on as usual in the year end..
OH GREAT..i say -.-

and guess what's worst?
my semester 2's finals is on the 5th day of Chinese New Year! (农历新年初五)
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then will be having 2 weeks break..then semester 3 , which is my last foundation semester starts again..
then?
i'll have 3 months of holidays after my last sem there..which is around june til september..
what should i do during that time? -.-

well it's hard to take back something i said..
so i really hope people would understand me this time..
i am really sorry about what i said..
i didn't meant to offend anyone..
and i really do felt ALOT better now..

I will be all fresh to welcome year 2011 ! =)
i promise and i hope everyone that i care and love do too..

Bouncing back after a downfall

well..phew..sad days are over for yeow yi shiuan..
time to bounce back!
=)

thanks to those who listens to me and helped me gone through it

well..i am quite active in frisbee in recent weeks
and that actually helps alot..haha =D

it feels like the only thing bothering me is
how much i want to hold that disk in the end zone! XD
nothing else other than friendship and frisbee is in that game for me now..
(while winning is not really a priority yet as i have no team..=P i m just always playing for fun)

and when there's a disk thrown for me..i'll always try my best to get it..=)
i get real disappointed when i mishandled the disk =/
bt then i learn from that bad catch so i wont be disappointed again
i will train and learn to outrun the marker more efficiently and get the disk =)
everything in my mind that moment while jumping for that disk is ME and that DISK..

well
for me, its similar to me that
disk = goal
marker = problems

ahhaha.. random! XD

PLUS..
it really feels like high school again when meeting high school friends and playing with them in the CHS field..

i saw a blog of friend of mine..well i like that latest post i read..talking everything about this year end and how much we have grown up and there's whole lots of that coming in front of us..well..i benefited from that post =) thanks

well..that's all for now i guess =p

i shall update soon and i promise it wont be a sad post =]

random day again

maybe i really had her to replace that someone i lost..

and its really hurts when i knew there's another guy..

i finally understood that feeling..
that dramatic scenes frm movies and series..
and i hated that feeling..
that feeling had even made me hated her

and i can tell u that i really seldom hated someone..so she's the LUCKY one

TIME..how i wish it could pass quickly to make me forget abt her quickly

i sound like a mean person, don't i?
but if u understand what i had gone through..u might think differently..

TIME , had made me realized alot of things..
TIME , had made me regretted alot of my decisions..
TIME , had made me lost my dearest friends
TIME , had made me realized how lucky i am in the pass

i know i had made alot of ppl dissappointed..

i can cry every day if i really wants..
cause i have enough things worth crying for..
but of course i don't

because i know there's always someone there still cares abt me..

i hope


its all just a mistake..














all i wanted is just the feeling of to be loved again

hmmm

i felt better already..thanks to a few of my friends =)

just a few songs i felt that it's quite suit me now..

我会尽力去寻找我那失去的笑容笑我笨

作词：曹格 作曲：曹格 编曲：丁宁

一点半的我默默在等 只等待一个人
路边没有人路边没有灯 我好冷
他们都说我该回家了 叫我别太天真

他们都在背后笑我对爱没天份
每个人都在笑我 笑我不知所措
每个人都说我们不会有结果
不会 不能 不该有结果
不会 不能 不该有结果

三点半的你终于到了 到你家的门口
我看见你和那个男孩 手牵手
我的要求也不算太多 只要你守承诺
为何欺骗我 为何折磨我 好难过

一个人一个人 无聊地在等
总以为就快有 奇迹的发生
才发现自己 是那么地 那么地笨
不会 不能 不该有结果
不会 不能 不该有结果

BY2 - 我知道

从来没想过 不能再和你牵手 

委屈时 候没有你陪着我心痛 

一切都是我太过骄纵 以为你会懂 

一直忘了说我有多感动 

我知道你还是爱着我 

虽然分开的理由 我们都已接受 

你知道我会有多难过  所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油 

我知道你还放不下我 

才会在离开时 闭着眼没有回头 

我们都知道彼此心中 

其实这份爱没停过 

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头 

我多希望你还在我左右 

答应你我会好好过 

不让这些眼泪白流

goodbye to you

my heart's really broken now

i dun think i m going to be confident in love anymore

the more i grow up..the more i don't understand love

i guess i'll only able to have family and friends' love

that true happiness of mine is leaving me further and further already..

will i end up being an idiot who w=shout FML?

i have nvr said that before anyway..

i guess this's life

life's short

plus it's being risked to hv only abt 2 more years..(2012's coming)

i m starting to believe that the world's ending soon nw

take me with it..create a big bang but promise me that you will make me a star in the universe..at least to create light by my own for the others..

not to be useless..

like now

ending this post with a tear on my face
forgive me for the emo-est post i think..i guess..cz i think i m nw having my emo-est moment of my current life

someone, please resurrect me from my current "death" mind

我心好痛

我心好痛

对不起

我没用

semester 2 starting soon

i will not post about the 2 day straight UNLUCKY days i have..=.= about cars

just one phrase to describe

" i ' m DISAPPOINTED on myself ! " =(

okay okay! STOP!

i m trying to forget about the incident..

bt then sure i m leaving back only the lesson i learnt from it..

*deep breathe*

huuuuu~

haha..=)

hmm..that day went out with zan hong and jialer to INTI there to go 捧场 a charity thingy organized by mian XD

but then..sorry mian..didn't find dao u to talk..=S

and sorry to shu huey and sijun oso..

LONG TIME NO SEE! =]

but then i duno what to say..and to react ><>

hmmm..really is a great feeling hanging out with friends..

=)

but then..i still miss that secondary school way of friendship..where we will have same holidays same exam periods..=p

i do miss..but then that doesn't mean i must have =]

i will not grow up if i would have stucked at that secondary level..

可能失去了才会有想念吧..

haha..

since there will be only very LIMITED ppl viewing this blog..hee..

not to be chuan..

jz sharing my joy =)

i get 3.88/4.00 for my GPA for the first trimester!!!!!!!!!!

4A's and 1B !

OH MY GOD!!! X)

want to SHOUT OUT LOUD man! @@

hope that i can keep it up though..i know it's tough..=)

but i will TRY..

hmm..gonna bk to hostel soon..tomorrow actually..=/

haha..going to miss this "relaxing" holidays..

dad said i became ROUNDER d! @_@

i hope he see wrong! @@

hahahhaha

i will be on almost everyday there..as long as there's internet..=)

i won't want to miss any moment with all of you..

hmmm..there are some friends i wish i could want back..

i duno abt them..bt then i really miss them alot..i miss talking to them..

bt then..there's always nt a chance..even when we meet..i duno wat to say..same old excuse..=/

sometimes see them online..wanted to talk to them..but then worried that there's nth for me to talk about..scared of disturbing them..scared of they say me fan..=/

maybe its just me thinking too much..

so pretty please my friends..can you all talk to me more often..as in find me to talk more often..

i really do need u guys..X(

i am always available when i m on9..as long as my status is available there..i will put my status to busy or away when i am really away and busy..haha

=p

okay..that's all for now i guess =)

hmm..felt quite good to say something in me out here..=p

i will write more often about what am i thinking and want here..haha

have a good night and nice day..everyone..=)

你不知道的事

there's alot of things of you which I never knew..

there's alot of things of me which you never knew..

and of course.

there's alot of things which you and I never knew..

I am just a normal human being..

i too have only 2 eyes and 1 brain..

and most importantly,

i can't READ minds..

life after secondary school really is getting tough..

that's the fact i can't deny..

alot of things need to be solved ourselves..

that's why i need to be strong..

both mentally and physically..

"BE STRONG!" i say..

but did i really tried my best to do so? i never know

i know i am kinda 自相矛盾-ing..

but this is what i am currently thinking..

what i just said may not related to each other by the way..

i have a bad memory..like SERIOUSLY bad..

i don't like my memories..i can't remember stuff well..

i don't want to hurt anyone..

i don't want to harm anyone..

anyway.. ignore me if you can..because i m writing this post unconsciously..

its 1.48am now..@@ and i am darn tired already

歌神 张学友 =)

i really like this song alot..=)

especially listening him singing live..

it's one of his popular songs

i had goosebumps when i m listening to it =O

and i am too "free" that i did a LITTLE bit of research of him..XD

(take note : i m having finals next week)

just to distract myself frm books a while..haha

he attended Jay Chou's concert recently which really realy amazed people..XD

that's what started my admiration towards him..hahaha

where i go listen his songs in youtube

he macam bring me back to his time in the 90's where he partially dominated the singing industry ! =p hahah...random laaaa @_@

btw..

he singing 吻别 is a hit towards the World ! world i say..

k la..nt so kua chang la..=.=

how abt places like Africa and other country rite? k k sorryy..

in the chinese and english music industry..better?

haha..cause there's a english version of that song

called take me to your heart

=D

anyway..this song have been an icon to him..because this song have been so popular since he started it..until now..

he's still winning awards with this song..LOL

amazing~ =O

k la.. i shall stop d

hahaha...

super random la..suddenly talk about him =p

hee

需要人陪

打開窗戶讓孤單透氣
這一間屋子 如此密閉
歡呼聲仍飄在空氣裡
像空無一人一樣華麗

我 漸漸失去知覺
就當做是種自我逃避
你 飛到天的邊緣
我也不猜落在何地

一個我 需要夢想 需要方向 需要眼淚
更需要 一個人來 點亮天的黑
我已經 無能為力 無法抗拒 無路可退
這無聲的夜 現在的我 需要人陪

閉上眼睛 就看不清
這雙人床 欠缺的 溫馨
誰能 陪我 直到天明
穿透這片 迷濛寂靜

我 漸漸失去知覺
就當做是種自我逃避
你 飛到天的邊緣
我已不猜落在何地

一個我 需要夢想 需要方向 需要眼淚
更需要 一個人來 點亮天的黑
我已經 無能為力 無法抗拒 無路可退
這無聲的夜 現在的我 需要人陪

一個我 需要夢想 需要方向 需要眼淚
更需要 一個人來 點亮天的黑
我已經 無能為力 無法抗拒 無路可退
這無聲的夜 現在的我 需要人陪

"haha"

oh my..nearly a month did'nt update again..=.="

cn die d..kena ppl ask to update again..sorry sorry sorry

ergh..@@

ermmmm..test 2 just ended..cant wait to know how i did in those tests..

good or bad..i m desperate to know..@.@

cause i nid it to boost my confidence in the finals which is about 2 weeks from now!! @@

oh my..its already 26th September now..

finals are from 11th October - 13 October

then i'll have my 1st sem break..2 weeks!

better than nth la =DD

anyway...got my 2nd sem time table..friday no classes =)

and i'll be same class with elaine teo! hahahah! XD

the only chs-ian in uniten whose same batch with me..same age la i mean..

might b updating when i finish my finals..=S

sorry again..haha

i wish all of you who seen my blog,

>>have very nice days ahead ,

>>All The Best in what you're doing n what you all want to do..

>>and of cz (look picture below)

till then, chaoz people! ^^

Starting of September

my last post's 5th of August? omg..its a month already..

SO FAST??!! OMG..

i swear i didn't noticed about it..@@

anyway..

this is where i spent my weekends with my family..

though there're nt many pictures..cause these are from my hp's camera..

Its in Shangri-La Hotel KL..

we get our stay there because my aunt's working there..

she somehow got a stay voucher to the Horizon Club in Shangri-La Hotel..

like a section of that Hotel..

Duno who's Ferrari..XD

During Breakfast..take note of the HONEY COMB..LOL!

i was like..WAH~ when i saw that..haha

Bedroom..i spent 2 nights there..but din get the chance to sleep on it..T.T

Living Room

the bar

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haha..no point talking abt all that rite? @@

make me miss that few days so much only..cause get All to EAT! !

i gained 2kg straight after that weekend..@@

OOPS! =X

back to my studies..

got 34/40 in my physics test =)

i m HAPPY about it d..gonna work harder to improve! ^^

GOGOGO!

this is the Library..=)

where the exams are held..

its FAR from where i live here..@@

Raya holidays approaching d! XD cant wait to see the SCOUTS

hahahaha!

finally..haha..

BUT THEN exams coming after that..@@

makeing it more like study break d..=/

right? mian XD

Picture of the Month,

the flowers bloomed so beautifully..

nearly covered all the leaves

=D

HAVE A GOOD DAY! =)

Almost Perfect

Most people says

life's not PERFECT..

well, i think that my life is ALMOST perfect already..=)

just that everyone have different aspect to describe their "perfect-ness"

and no one can actually define perfect as well..

because everyone have their own different needs

that's why..

APPRECIATE your life please =)

APPRECIATE everything

don't regret after u lost something important

life isn't forever

and for me, some add-ons for my fellow scouts out there

( one of the scout laws Xp )

please remember:

A Scout is Cheerful.

A Scout looks for the bright side of life.

He cheerfully does tasks that come his way.

He tries to make others happy.

Pictures =) 2

Hey! xD

here are some more pictures i took =)

The Bouganvilla flowers ( hope i din spell wrong =P)

they grew so many flowers...almost cover all the leaves!

Nice OLD tree =]

our VERY OWN CLAMPING ! xD haha

so cool when i first saw that..XD

view from inside my class after raining

located in uniten Administration building..=)

i take alot of pictures of plants i notice..haha

they are nice..

they give me a kind of harmony feeling =)

spot anything fishy in it? XD

HAHA..i know its very random to take all these pictures..

without a DSLR , this is the best i can do..Xp

hmm..i have been having classes since 5th of july..its 1st of august now already..

haha..time flies..rite? =)

i m currently still enjoying my hostel life..

but then..i really need my sleep..=X

like today..i nearly missed my quiz cz i woke up late..@@

ergh..

test's coming this friday..

BUCK UP la..Yi Shiuan..=)

orh...okay..haha

see u all real soon~

good night !

Pictures =) 1

Some pictures of my Uni :

taken myself..but had some problem editing it..

don't know how..so in the end didn't edit it haha

~my "destination"

~ my long journey ahead..=)

~but when I look around,

there'll be always something accompanying me through the journey

~er..my alternate aim?? hahaha

~look at the mushroom..not the sign..

it's quite huge..=O

~ TAN SHEN WEN! look carefully..

my CLEANED and TIDY bed! XD

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this pic is taken in an melacca beach..haha..not in my Uni

~ I Believe ~

Another New Chapter In Life

i know i really should blog already..=)

guess what??

i m currently studying in Uniten (University Tenaga Nasional)

please note that uniten is NOT a government university..

it's just the name..haha

its a private university..

and i am staying the hostel there..called Kelompok Amanah..=)

i am here for my foundation studies..

hmm..just had my FIRST class today..

basically..er..very zadou day..haha

here's some photos to show where am i staying..i m actually staying in an apartment..2 rooms and then 2 person per room..so its 4 person per house..

~living room

~my room

~my wardrobe

~my BED! XD

i shall talk abt what happened during my orientation week..a long long week

okay..i m actually registered and started staying in the hostel since 26th June

we was told that the orientation week started frm sunday til saturday night!

i was like @___@

i have no idea what was orientation for that time..that's why time pass so slow i think..

but after about 4-5 days of orientation only i know abt the importance of it..slow slow me..@@

erm..okay..

theres about 1000+ new students attended the orientation..

all were divided to different mas (mass A , mass B , mass C and so on)

i am in Mass C , which sound so like MESSI! XD haha random

then..in our mass..we are again divided to 10 groups ( C1 , C2 , C3 and so on)

and i m in C8. =D every group hv its own facilitator , they are seniors from MPP (Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar)

they are in charge of orientation and us..=)

they are real nice ppl..=D

~ Some of Mass C facilitators

~my facilitator and C8 group , my facilitator is the ketua facilitator for Mass C oso

okay..macam will b a very long post..@@

haha..anyway..i will summarize it ba..haha

erm..had TALKS..lots of talks..@@ taklimat and ceramah

sit in the Dewan til butt pain..haha..

and that time's where everyone sleeps..hahaha..

anyway..meals are all provided throughout the orientation week

BUT...

~LONG LONG queue...@__@

and its 90% Malay food

10 more percent is cz i dunno how to identify whether it's malay onot..haha

malays and indians are majorities here..

ohya..forgot to introduce my housemates and roommates

Roommate!

~ Tan Tian Gee (From Cheras )

~ just back from NS

Housemates!

~ Tan Mun Foong Daryl (From Ipoh)

~ Clinton Paul (from Sabah)

i guess i m lucky enough to have them as my housemates..XD

among the 4 staying in a house..3 are chinese and 1 is actually half chinese..=p

funny and nice guys

this is the only one CHS-ian who are same age as me

~Elaine Teo

hmmm..i think that's the summary of it

sure i have left out something..haha..but..

er..i m tired d..hehe

update next time ba..

just want u all to know that

I MISS EVERYONE OF YOU! =(

Inspired..=)

inspired by a video in Crystal's blog..XD

from leng hue's blog links

saw that with liang jie and straight away made one! XD

Soo Ling loves to STUDY! XD

Kok Sheng is thinking abt facebook while reading newspaper! @@

oh? Strawberry?!

haha...Kok Sheng again thinking abt playing facebook while reading..XD

Dead Blog

i know this blog is so dead..=P

please forgive me for that..

i m currently working 5 days+ a week..

monday and tuesday working at my cousin's company..Mary Kay in Jaya 33 (seksyen 14)

wednesday til friday working at TTC (teaching Maths!)

saturday and sunday suppose to be rest..but lately got revision classes to teach lo..

then sunday will be my FRISBEE day..XD

i cant play wit the Taylor's though..cause time doesn't suit me..so sad..=(

i read a e-mail lately and wanted to share it here..

i know some of you might seen it before..sorry lah..haha

there's a few of them are my favourites..XD the ones in RED !!

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

1。 人生是不公平，但還是好得很。

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
2。 懷疑的時候，為未來踏出一小步。

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

3。人生太短，短到來不及浪費時間去恨任何一個人。

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
4。 生病的時候，你的工作不會照顧妳。你的朋友和父母會。保持聯絡。

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
5。 每一個月付清你的信用卡。

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

6。 你不需要每一次都吵贏。同意你不同意的。

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

7。找人一起哭。它比獨自啜泣更加療愈。

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

8。 對上帝生氣沒有關係。祂受得了。

9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
9。 退休存款從你的第一張薪水條開始。

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

10。講到巧克力，抗拒只是徒勞無功。

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. ( i like this alot)

11。和你的過去和解，所以它不會搞砸你的當下。

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
12。讓你的孩子看到你哭沒有關係。

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
13。別拿自己的人生和他人做比較。你根本不清楚他們的人生是怎麼一回事。

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

14。如果一段親密關係要偷偷摸摸，你根本不應該涉入。

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

15。一眨眼的功夫什麼都會變。但是別擔心：上帝從來不眨眼。

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

16。深吸一口氣。它會安定你的腦。

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

17。沒用，不美，或不喜悅的東西都丟掉。

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
18。沒讓你死的真的會讓你更堅強。

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
19。重拾快樂童年永不嫌晚。但這第二次只能靠你不靠人。

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

20。當關乎追求你生命的所愛，不要把不要當答案。

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

21。點蠟燭，用好的床單，穿上炫麗的內衣。不要特殊場合才用。今天就是特別的一天。

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
22。準備要過於周全，然後隨遇而安。

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
23。現在就離經叛道。不要一把年紀了才開始穿上紫色。

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
24。最重要的性器官是腦袋。

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25。除了你，沒有人在主宰你的快樂。

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'

26。把所謂的不幸用這一句話把它表框起來 "五年後，這還重要嗎?"

27. Always choose life.
27。永遠選擇生活。

28. Forgive everyone everything.
28。原諒每一個人每一件事。

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29。別人怎麼看你不干你的事。

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
30。時間會痊癒幾乎每一件事。要給時間，時間。

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

31。無論情況多好或多壞，它都會變的。

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32。不要那麼認真的看待自己。沒有人會這樣看待你的。

33. Believe in miracles.
33。相信奇蹟。

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34。上帝愛你是因為祂就是這樣，不是因為你做了什麼或是沒做什麼。

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35。不要稽查人生。現在就呈現和做最大的發揮。

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

36。變老了打敗另一種選項 - 死得早。

37. Your children get only one childhood.
37。你的孩子只有一個童年。

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38。最後真正最重要的是你愛過。

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39。每一天都出門。奇蹟在四處等著。

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
40。如果我們都把我們的問題都丟成一堆，然後看看其他人的，我們會把我們的撿回來。

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

41。忌妒浪費時間。你已經擁有你所需要的了。

42. The best is yet to come.
42。最好的都還沒來。

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43。不管你感覺如何，起來，穿好和呈現。

44. Yield.
44。讓自己每天快樂。

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
45。人生不會打上蝴蝶結，但它仍然是一份禮物。

Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves.

That's all for now =)